Friday, October 16, 2009

Black Dog

Cranmer’s readers and communicants will need to bear with His Grace today, for he is subject to a very great oppression which has not only brought him very low, but turned him to thoughts of another death which would bring him great relief. When one makes a principled stand for truth and justice, one more than half hopes that the immutable virtues might prevail, that the light of truth might shine in the darkest recesses, and that justice might flow like a river.

But real life isn’t like that.

Its rains on the righteous as well as the unrighteous, regardless of whether or not they lied when they were 17.

When one confronts a liar and a bully, perhaps it is to be anticipated that they might lie and bully more in order to deceive and deflect, because one knows the identity of the Father of Lies, and he is an adversary of formidable capacities. The personal costs – emotional as well as material – may be understood intellectually, but they are scarcely comprehensible or even recognisable de profundis. One may, like Job, bewail the day one was born and seek to crawl back into the heavenly security of the womb. But even the womb is no longer a refuge: indeed, it has become the principal place of mass murder. One may lament from the depths of Sheol, like the psalmist, and in deep sorrow and misery cry to God and ask for mercy. The psalmist may trust in God, but the anguish of the pit is unbearable.

The depths of despair are deeper than the ocean, and the black void is a taste of death.

His Grace is not sure that he has the strength to continue or the will to live, if, indeed, his ashes could be said to have ever re-lived in a corporeal sense at all. He needs to spend some time in the company of Beethoven: his Sonata Op 106 in B Flat Major is already playing. Vivat, vivat. If His Grace again returns to the earth in dust, he thanks his loyal readers and communicants for their congenial fellowship over these years, and he prays God’s richest blessings upon you all sincerely.


Anonymous Anonymous said...

My thoughts and prayers are with you.

I pray our Lord gives you peace and comfort.

Steve T

16 October 2009 at 10:24  
Blogger D. Singh said...

Your Grace,

If my post is like the sayings of one of Job’s miserable comforters then forgive me, if thou still has the strength.

‘Prayers are not always - in the crude, factual sense of the word – ‘granted’. This is not because prayer is a weaker kind of causality, but because it is a stronger kind. When it ‘works’ at all it works unlimited by space and time. That is why God has retained a discretionary power of granting or refusing it; except on that condition prayer would destroy us.’

C.S. Lewis

Work and Prayer

The Coventry Evening Telegraph, 28 May 1945

16 October 2009 at 10:31  
Blogger McKenzie said...

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16 October 2009 at 10:44  
Blogger Preacher said...

Your Grace.
Sorry to hear that you are in a despondant state today. My prayers are added to the other communicants for the return of your joie de vie & incisive wit as well as your general wellbeing.

16 October 2009 at 10:45  
Blogger Callum said...

A troubled agnostic sends his thoughts and best wishes to one of the best thinkers and writers on the internet. Take care.

16 October 2009 at 10:49  
Anonymous Simon said...

Your Grace

The world has always needed great thinkers and writers such as yourself, so I sincerely hope you can keep up your sterling work.

16 October 2009 at 10:57  
Anonymous Hank Petram said...

Your Grace,

May I add ny voice to the chorus of puzzled, perplexed and concerned communicants who pray for an early and complete recovery. Has Your Grace been served with a writ of non sequitur by Carter Ruck? Nothing as severe as that, I trust. Something upsetting in the morning news? Not ill health, I trust.

Your blessing, my Lord.

16 October 2009 at 10:58  
Anonymous Generalfeldmarschall said...

Your Grace
My thoughts and prayers for Your Grace are added to those of Your Grace's other communicants.
I would prescribe continuation of the Beethoven therapy. Hammerklavier is a good start.

16 October 2009 at 10:58  
Anonymous Stuart said...

And whether we be afflicted, it is for your consolation and salvation, which is effectual in the enduring of the same sufferings which we also suffer: or whether we be comforted, it is for your consolation and salvation.

16 October 2009 at 11:04  
Blogger The Half-Blood Welshman said...

Your Grace

It is indeed very sad that in standing up to bullies and liars sometimes truth and virtue isn't enough - as I have found out myself to my cost in standing up to a very unpleasant gentleman who thought, because his cause was good, his appalling methods were beyond rebuke.

In my case the black dog hung over me for about a month afterwards and I still find it difficult not to think angrily about the man concerned (although I do try). But the great thing is, the worst bits do go away in the end. I hope and pray that you will be given the strength to deal with this, and come back the same brilliant Archbishop we all know and love so well.

16 October 2009 at 11:07  
Blogger Gnostic said...

Your Grace, I am sorry to hear of your deep melancholia. I hope you feel more cheerful soon.

Music can be a terrific mood enhancer. In times of political desperation I like to listen to Verdi's Coro di Zingari and imagine that certain or our so called political elite are getting the crap knocked out of them with every musical clang...

Word verification - funno. I kid you not...

16 October 2009 at 11:15  
Blogger Carl Gardner, Head of Legal said...

I'm sorry too, about Your Grace's vale of tears. I hope the retreat and rending of clerical garb will soon be past. As a rabid Dawkinsite I won't be praying for you - but I will light a candle.

Should we start a "musicforhisgrace" hashtag on Twitter?

16 October 2009 at 11:31  
Blogger Carl Gardner, Head of Legal said...

Let's see if this works.

16 October 2009 at 11:37  
Blogger Albert said...

I am saddened to hear of your plight and assure you of my prayers. Perhaps, if you have not done so already, you might read St Therese' Story of a Soul, or may be better still Her Last Conversations. St Therese is a supreme guide in finding Christ in the darkness - which is oddly enough exactly where we ought to expect to find him. Perhaps that is why she has astonished everyone by being so popular over here. May she pray for you too to Lord our God.

16 October 2009 at 11:38  
Anonymous sydneysider said...

OK Diagnosis..all that stuff about Blair and Bones enough to make anyone want to neck themselves

1.Keep away from Pope and Catholics for awhile.
2.Beethoven is no good for depression.
Recommended the Prelude from the Holst Planet Suite or any of the vivace movts from Handel's concerto
3.Pack a small bag and come over here.It's Spring we're moving in to Summer
4.Will meet you at the airport.We will drive up the coast and I'll
teach you how to surf.
5.We will stay at a country property will do a bit of work...My Mrs is the best cook in the southern hemisphere and she doesn't talk.
6.When you get a grip and form new
strategies you can return home or not.
7.I'll run your blog for you and sort out a few troublesome communicants for you!

16 October 2009 at 11:42  
Blogger Gnostic said...

Therapeutic and cathartic

16 October 2009 at 11:50  
Anonymous TheGlovner said...

Well I wouldn't say my prayers were with you as that would have no meaning. But you have my hopes for a speedy recovery.

16 October 2009 at 11:54  
Anonymous no nonny said...

Deepest sympathy and concern, Your Grace.

I think one or two of us communicants have a sense of the present-day problem with liars and bullies: I suspect you're not alone in that. However, please know that your blog stands above all others, for me. It is a great light in deep darkness.

I hope my prayers will count, with all the others.

All best ~~~

16 October 2009 at 11:58  
Blogger ultramontane grumpy old catholic said...

Your Grace

De profundis clamavi ad te Domine:
Domine exaudi vocem meam

My prayers and best wishes for a speedy recovery.

If you decide to take up sydneysider's offer, perhaps I could come too.

16 October 2009 at 12:05  
Blogger PaulineG said...

Your Grace,

Oh dear, oh dear. This will not do.

This loyal communicant needs to hear you are on the mend and shall not be right until.

If you can bear to ignore the first part of what sounds otherwise like excellent advice and a wonderful offer from sydneysider (take it up!), you might consider some advice from a Catholic, Padre Pio:

He said "Hope, pray and don't worry".

Nothing is too much for God, so leave it in all humility in His loving hands and focus on loving and nurturing yourself as He would wish you to do.

It is a bit obscure so I don't know if you will find it but there is one piece of music which unfailingly lifts me: It is James Galway and Cleo Laine's rendering of "Lo hear the gentle Lark". It is both beautiful music and wonderfully funny.

16 October 2009 at 12:05  
Blogger AJ said...

I add my wishes for a swift end of your troubles and return to usual sparkling form. Should you need any help in resisting your oppressors, you need only say the word and your loyal readers will rally round.

16 October 2009 at 12:09  
Blogger David Ould said...

"Though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death...
...I will fear no evil. For YOU are with me".

We pray that your Grace might know the certainty of that truth, even in your uncertainty.

16 October 2009 at 12:35  
Blogger Beware of Geeks bearing GIFs said...

Your Grace,

I too am going through great pain with issues in my life. At times, the relief from quitting beckoned closer each day. Then my dear mother sent me this. I hope it helps you in any way as it did for me:

When things go wrong, as they sometimes will
When the road you're trudging seems all uphill
When the funds are low and the debts are high
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh
When care is pressing you down a bit
Rest if you must, but don't you quit.

Life is strange with its twists and turns
As every one of us sometimes learns
And many a failure turns about
When they might have won, had they stuck it out.
Don't give up though the pace seems slow
You may succeed with another blow.

Success is failure turned inside out
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt
And you never can tell how close you are
It may be near when it seems afar;
So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit
It's when things seem worst that you mustn't quit.

16 October 2009 at 12:47  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Your Grace,
If I remember rightly, your words to Hugh Latimer near the end of your earthly life concerned the candle which you both lit on that day.
Don't be ashamed that now you only offer your communicants a candleflame, which occasionally flickers.
That candle, lit in the service of the Light of the World, shines on and the Darkness shall never overcome it.

God Bless You.

John Wrake

16 October 2009 at 12:47  
Blogger Dan said...

Your Grace,

I am distressed to read of your melancholic state and I do wish you a good and full recovery from your depths.

I am however heartened, as you should be your Grace, at the reaction from your community. The love that your readers and communicants hold for you is as real as it is human. I hope that you find whatever it is you need to discover to overcome this vile dip in your humours and that your spleen regains its composure.

If you are in need of a tip, might I suggest a Johann Sebastian Bach’s Toccata and Fugue in D Minor? Or perhaps if you are feeling up to something more modern the wonderful Third Piano Concerto by Rachmaninoff.

16 October 2009 at 12:59  
Blogger D. Singh said...

Your Grace,

There seems to something quite odd and unexpected in the New Testament that I discovered this morning. The apostles don’t seem to permit us to see ourselves as victims but as victors. This is despite the application of false charges; beatings; lashings; false testimony; witness testimonies that are in disaccord with each other; rigged trials and executions.

1 The LORD is my shepherd; I shall not want.

2 He maketh me to lie down in green pastures: he leadeth me beside the still waters.

3 He restoreth my soul: he leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his name's sake.

4 Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me.

5 Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over.

6 Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the LORD for ever.

16 October 2009 at 13:03  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I can only recommend evensong at New College, Oxford.

16 October 2009 at 13:11  
Anonymous IAlbion said...

Your Grace,missing you already,all my love,don't be gone for to fact don't go at all!

16 October 2009 at 13:21  
Blogger Simon said...

Your Grace,

Listen to the joy of Beethoven's "Symphony No. 6 in F major (Op. 68)". It never fails to raise my spirits from the depths of despondency - Its unfortunate association with state-assisted suicide in the film "Soylent Green" aside.

Praise be to God that you have contributed such as you have.

16 October 2009 at 13:41  
Anonymous chris r said...

I seem to recall Elijah struggled in similar fashion, your Grace.

Stay faithful.

God will reward you richly!

16 October 2009 at 14:23  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Your Grace,

This is the first time I have ever written a comment on any blog whatsoever.

I was recommended your blog around 10 months ago, and I have read it almost every day since, which is a measure of how very much I appreciate your writings.

Please be assured of the heartfelt prayers, love and support of your huge number of friends. I pray that the Lord will continue to give you His help and strength every day. He is faithful. May you be enabled to hold on to Him - underneath are His everlasting arms.

16 October 2009 at 14:25  
Anonymous chris r said...

Oh, and a personal thank you from me, for being a beacon of light, Truth and common sense in an age whicg is becoming increasingly dark!

16 October 2009 at 14:26  
Anonymous chris r said...

Beethoven's Heilige Dankgesang is worth a listen ...

16 October 2009 at 14:33  
Blogger dutchlionfrans1953 said...

Those feelings are not unfamiliar to me. I like to receommed C.S. Lewis books to you, in particular "A Grief Observed."

I found this the most honest treatise on the issue of injustice and suffering that can not be understood and looks so unfair, at least to those who are just and true and righteous, that I can remember ever reading.

Cranmer: I appreciate your honesty in not covering up how you really feel!

Many times I felt to throw in the towel, saying: "What's the use? Who cares? It seems the harded I battled injustice, lies, immorality, evil, the harder it grew. And YOU, Lord, seem to care the least of all." And so I struggle with God Himself! Since 1982 my struggle with God about such issues has lasted now.

I can only come to this conclusion: "Though He slay me, yet will I trust Him!" (Job) Who do I 'have' besides Him?

I MUST TRUST HIM, that He knows what He is allowing and doing, especially when it looks like a cruel circus, and we (The upright and just) are victims of His cruel experiment, and all seems to contradict His nature & character and His Word. The devil would want us to become so angry with God that we turn our backs on Him. To do this would mean we have battled and believed in vain.

The world this way will not remain!

God has told us of His Kingdom, which is NOT of this why try to build it with our own strength and effort?

God tells us all will stand before His judgement seat and give an account and be punished, unless we belong to Jesus Christ!

God tells us of a great future, that we may be part of, provided we follow and obey and trust Jesus Christ TILL THE END!

MARANATHA! Come Lord Jesus! Come!

Keep holding on, Cranmer!

Submit yourselves therefore to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you. James 4: 7

Casting all your care upon him; for he careth for you. Be sober, be vigilant; because your adversary the devil, as a roaring lion, walketh about, seeking whom he may devour: Whom resist stedfast in the faith, knowing that the same afflictions are accomplished in your brethren that are in the world. ( 1 Peter 5: 7-9

16 October 2009 at 14:36  
Blogger English Viking said...

Chin up, old bean.

16 October 2009 at 14:40  
Anonymous Knighthawk said...

Your Grace,

Shining religo-political light abroad in this dark world was bound to arouse the Prince of Darkness and particularly so since his strategies have been incisively exposed by your discourses. So 'Black Dog' has you in his jaws does he? Don't despair, that foul creature tried to silence Winston Churchill too, and failed.

Elijah when threatened with death at the hand of Jezebel also prayed that he might die. You too have been very zealous for the Lord Almighty amongst a people who have mostly rejected Him, trashed anything sacred, and scorned the message of the Cross.
Don't despair, even in our age you can be sure that the Lord has reserved for Himself a people who have not bowed to the Zeitgeist and will never do so.
You are not alone, your readers and communicants are praying for you.

Persecution is the price of Prophecy.
Take heart for the Christ you serve said:
“If the world hates you, keep in mind that it hated me first. If you belonged to the world, it would love you as its own. As it is you do not belong to the world, but I have chosen you out of the world. That is why the world hates you. Remember the words I spoke to you: 'No servant is greater than his master.' If they persecuted me they will persecute you also. If they obeyed my teaching they will obey yours also. They will treat you this way because of my name, for they do not know the One who sent me.”

16 October 2009 at 15:05  
Blogger Frugal Dougal said...

Your Grace,

Rodrigo's Concierto de Aranjuez works for me.

Being manic depressive, may I offer

1 - Give yourself permission to feel what you are feeling.

2 - Remember the name of God in your despondency, and the Holy Spirit will bring the words you can't utter to the Father (Romans 8:26).

3 - Be careful about people who give you lists of things to do!

I remain

Your humble servant

Frugal Dougal
Happy Yellow Dog of the Fens
(by appointment)

16 October 2009 at 15:19  
Blogger dutchlionfrans1953 said...

Remember Cranmer: The devil is a LIAR

Remember also that he has lost! Jesus Christ has won the victory at Calvary - what is more: at HIS RESSURECTION from the dead!! Satan had to hand over the keys of death to Christ.

And satan knows his time is short. That is why he is going around like a roaring lion seeking whome he can devour!

You and I MUST RESIST him, submitted to Christ Jesus as our Lord, which takes effort. Effort we feel we do not have the strength or even will any more to exert!

This is spiritual warfare. This WAR is real! But the victory is sure. BUT WE MUST FIGHT! TILL THE END! Satan is mean, and does not fight according to rules or honour

I have observed, Cranmer, that whenever I was getting very angry and upset with God, it usually was a day or so after I had written and sent out something that was not liked by the haters of truth, and justice and righteousness, who did and do not like their evil persons and plans and works to be exposed. So they curse us, and thus release hords of hell against us. These demons and firy darts are very very real! And I allowed all kinds of negative thoughts about God and that He must hate me and be against me and try to provoke me to anger with Him by His cruel deeds, and even possibly do everything to bring me to such despair to try make me commit suicide, while loving the evildoers for they have no problems and prosper while I have sacrificed and suffer for truth and justice, in short: for Christ, and on and on it goes...and my neighbours know, for they have heard me shout at Him many times.

Ephesians 6 which talks about this battle says: and having done all, to stand. So: STAND!

"Stand and see the salvation of God!"

16 October 2009 at 15:19  
Blogger dutchlionfrans1953 said...

One final remark: As a true spiritual remedy: Magnify the Lord Jesus Christ! Even if doing it feels like a lie! Do not trust these feelings that go against the truth! This is WARFARE PRAISE! This is WARFARE WORSHIP! This is WARFARE GLORIFICATION and MAGNIFICATION of the Lord WHO is deserving of all this! Thus making (y)our enemy (look) smaller and smaller, until...he is no more.

So stop giving in to feelings of despair, looking at what the enemy says and presents in front of you, bombarding your thoughts with it.

Stop feeding this devil who acts as a lion, and he will die! Start feeding your spirit with the Truth of God! His Word as also sung in your magnification, praise and worshop of Jesus Christ! And you will grow and grow, and outgrow your enemy!

Then command the enemy of your soul: "Satan, in the Name of Jesus Christ, my Lord and Saviour, Who defeated You on Calvary at the cross where His blood was shed for me, what is more, Whom you had to hand over the keys of Death and Who was resurrected from the death on the third day; Who ascended to the heavens from hwich He will soon return, GO!!! In the Name of Jesus Christ, satan, GO! Let go of me, NOW

16 October 2009 at 15:37  
Blogger Obnoxio The Clown said...

My thoughts are with you. Don't fret, you will come out the other side of this with greater strength.

16 October 2009 at 15:59  
Blogger Owl said...

Your Grace,
Please do not feel too alone, many others have been there too and survived. I thank you for (unwittingly?) building a community of individuals which must be terrifying for the collective beast. The ways of God are deeply hidden and He sometimes works through human beings or even the ashes thereof to further his plans. Ah, I feel that you are picking up again already. Good show your Grace and don't forget to sharpen up your pen!

16 October 2009 at 16:11  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

My thoughts and prayers are with you too. When I was in that dark place I found that reading the Psalms sometimes helped. (Try Psalm 18 ... see below). Remember that even when we can't hold on to God, He has promised to hold on to us. If your dark thoughts persist you should also seek help from your medical practioner. Thank you so much for your consistently inspirational blog.
God bless
Roger H.
Psalm 18 1-6 I will love thee, O LORD, my strength. The LORD is my rock, and my fortress, and my deliverer; my God, my strength, in whom I will trust; my buckler, and the horn of my salvation, and my high tower. I will call upon the LORD, who is worthy to be praised: so shall I be saved from mine enemies. The sorrows of death compassed me, and the floods of ungodly men made me afraid. The sorrows of hell compassed me about: the snares of death prevented me. In my distress I called upon the LORD, and cried unto my God: he heard my voice out of his temple, and my cry came before him, even into his ears.
46-50 The LORD liveth; and blessed be my rock; and let the God of my salvation be exalted. It is God that avengeth me, and subdueth the people under me. He delivereth me from mine enemies: yea, thou liftest me up above those that rise up against me: thou hast delivered me from the violent man. Therefore will I give thanks unto thee, O LORD, among the heathen, and sing praises unto thy name. Great deliverance giveth he to his king; and sheweth mercy to his anointed, to David, and to his seed for evermore.

16 October 2009 at 16:44  
Anonymous unchbute said...

Try some Leonard Cohen

16 October 2009 at 16:46  
Anonymous Angel said...

none of us knew each other
but we were all saddened
and somewhat surprised
that a pile of ashes
could mean more to us
than we ever imagined

16 October 2009 at 17:18  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

May your despondency and affliction recede and may God grant you comfort in whatever ails thee.

The world will be poorer without your presence, so I pray for your spedy recovery.

16 October 2009 at 17:26  
Blogger Dorothy said...

I hope you will find strength from the Lord's Prayer - the greatest prayer of all.

All the very best.

16 October 2009 at 17:54  
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16 October 2009 at 17:58  
Blogger The Lakelander said...

Your Grace,

The number of bloggers who are prepared to leave messages that sympathise with your plight should, in itself, be a source of light at the end of your dark tunnel.

I hope you reach the end of that tunnel soon.

16 October 2009 at 18:06  
Anonymous Occasional lurker said...

My thoughts and prayers are with you as well. Two things to add to all that's been said above:

1. From Romans 8:
If God is for us, who can be against us? He who did not spare his own Son, but gave him up for us all — how will he not also, along with him, graciously give us all things? Who will bring any charge against those whom God has chosen? It is God who justifies. Who is he that condemns? Christ Jesus, who died — more than that, who was raised to life — is at the right hand of God and is also interceding for us. Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall trouble or hardship or persecution or famine or nakedness or danger or sword? As it is written:
"For your sake we face death all day long;
we are considered as sheep to be slaughtered."
No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.

2. Non illegitimi carborundum.

16 October 2009 at 18:17  
Anonymous judith said...

I have known the depths of a very dark place, but the needs of others depending on me brought me back. Your regular visitors here need you.

And please, not Beethoven but Mozart will reinforce your positive thoughts.

I wish you well.

16 October 2009 at 18:39  
Anonymous Douglas Knight said...

Anybody can take a day off occasionally, but we are short of brave men so can't afford to let you go off duty I'm afraid

16 October 2009 at 18:40  
Blogger srizals said...

Hope U could emerge from the blues asap. The Net would be boring n lifeless without U.

16 October 2009 at 19:36  
OpenID jobtwenteewun1to3 said...

May the peace of God which passes all understanding guard your heart and mind in the knowledge and love of the Lord Jesus Christ.

16 October 2009 at 19:57  
Anonymous len said...

A mighty fortress is our God,
A bulwark never failing;
Our helper He amid the flood
Of mortal ills prevailing.
For still our ancient foe
Doth seek to work us woe --
His craft and pow'r are great,
And armed with cruel hate,
On earth is not his equal.


Did we in our own strength confide
Our striving would be losing,
Were not the right Man on our side,
The Man of God's own choosing.
Dost ask who that may be?
Christ Jesus, it is He --
Lord Sabaoth His name,
From age to age the same --
And He must win the battle.


And tho this world, with devils filled,
Should threaten to undo us,
We will not fear, for God hath willed
His truth to triumph thru us.
The prince of darkness grim --
We tremble not for him;
His rage we can endure,
For lo! his doom is sure --
One little word shall fell him.


That word above all earthly pow'rs --
No thanks to them abideth;
The Spirit and the gifts are ours
Thru Him who with us sideth.
Let goods and kindred go,
This mortal life also;
The body they may kill:
God's truth abideth still --
His kingdom is forever.

( M Luther)

God Bless you Cranmer, I wish you a speedy recovery

16 October 2009 at 20:01  
Anonymous Edward said...

Good luck, your Grace. May I - ever so gently - suggest you cease following politics for a few weeks, and turn your concentration instead to the Faith which restores and heals? I only say that because politics is hardly the most uplifting thing, and is so empty, bitter and hateful compared to the unshakeable truths of Our Lord.

16 October 2009 at 20:05  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Your Grace,

Thank you for being honest and courageous enough to share a little of your inner pain.

Maybe you just need some time out of the front line. A soldier can only stand so long in combat before needing rest and recuperation. I have no reason to believe it is any different in spiritual warfare. This was the case with Elijah who ran for cover in the face of Jezebel's threats after he defeated the priests of Baal. Maybe this bully is to you what Jezebel was to Elijah - the last straw that broke the camel's back, so to speak.

It is not weakness to admit you cannot get through this on your own. Have the humility to seek help now, if necessary medical help from your GP, and spiritual counsel from trusted Christian friends - maybe even prayer ministry for healing of mind and spirit.

I have had problems with depression for several years. The most helpful books I found were these two:

When Heaven is Silent by Ronn Dunn

Healing for Damaged Emotions by David J Seamands

It sounds trite, but the following verse from a Christian chorus comes to mind:

"When your enemy presses in hard do not fear, the battle belongs to The LORD;
take courage my friend your redemption is near, the battle belongs to The LORD...We sing glory, honour, power and strength to The LORD..."

As others have mentioned, music can be a real balm to the soul. (I also (re-)discovered birdwatching.)

I love John Rutter's setting of the Benediction from Numbers 6:24:

May The Lord bless you and keep you.
May the Lord make his face to shine upon you, and be gracious to you.
May the Lord lift up his countenance upon you, and give you peace.

Yours in Christ

Alfred of Wessex

16 October 2009 at 20:21  
Anonymous John Malcolmson said...

Please don't go YG. We can ill afford to lose a bulwark (especially one with your erudition and articulacy) against the evil of the dark age which is closing in upon us.

As one who both experiences the dreaded BD regularly, and who, as other contributors, venerates JS Bach, I would recommend some of the great Bach organ works only if you feel it would help, under the circumstances, to be reminded of the omnipotence and awesome power of your God. Otherwise, may I suggest the Brandenburg Concertos, which for me convey a sense of hope and the proper "order" of things.

16 October 2009 at 20:23  
Anonymous S Lartius said...

Whatever accident of life has befallen Your Grace, whatever troubles him, please consider all those who look to you for your wise words on the great issues that trouble our country today. We need men like Your Grace.

16 October 2009 at 21:05  
Anonymous Andrew said...

I hope that you will accept the best wishes and assurance of prayers from one of your Catholic readers for a speedy return to normal service.

16 October 2009 at 21:53  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Why art thou then cast down, my soul?
what should discourage thee?
And why with vexing thoughts art thou
disquieted in me?
Still trust in God; for him to praise
good cause I yet shall have:
He of my count'nance is the health,
my God that doth me save.

(Psalm 43:5, Metrical version)

Your Grace,
I listened to those words sung, on my ipod, this afternoon on the train, and hope they will be used to encourage you. Your work writing your blog is so appreciated by so many, and is an invaluable contribution to public discourse. If you need to take a sabbatical, then your readers will entirely understand - but we do look forward to your restoration and return.
With prayers and best wishes,

16 October 2009 at 22:36  
Anonymous the recusant said...

Percy Bysshe Shelley's

Prometheus Unbound Excerpt

This is the day, which down the void abysm
At the Earth-born's spell yawns for Heaven's despotism,
And Conquest is dragged captive through the deep:
Love, from its awful throne of patient power
In the wise heart, from the last giddy hour
Of dead endurance, from the slippery, steep,
And narrow verge of crag-like agony, springs
And folds over the world its healing wings.

Gentleness, Virtue, Wisdom, and Endurance,
These are the seals of that most firm assurance
Which bars the pit over Destruction's strength;
And if, with infirm hand, Eternity,
Mother of many acts and hours, should free
The serpent that would clasp her with his length;
These are the spells by which to re-assume
An empire o'er the disentangled doom.

To suffer woes which Hope thinks infinite;
To forgive wrongs darker than death or night;
To defy Power, which seems omnipotent;
To love, and bear; to hope till Hope creates
From its own wreck the thing it contemplates;
Neither to change, nor falter, nor repent;
This, like thy glory, Titan, is to be
Good, great and joyous, beautiful and free;
This is alone Life, Joy, Empire, and Victory.

16 October 2009 at 22:40  
Blogger Marie1797 said...

Your Grace
Reading everyone’s heartfelt comments and kind wishes, you must continue, your public needs you.

I think God really does work in mysterious ways. Those who bully will get their comeuppance eventually.

When suffering the blues I found it helpful to engage in something humbling. Joining a charity that provided essentials and a friendly ear to the homeless of London I met some great people in the group and it took me out of myself. It was winter 92 just after the Tories had closed the mental institutions , I encountered a lot of these pitiful people huddled in doorways as well as the usual scary vagrants, druggies etc., and I heard some real genuine stories of plight and bad luck that brought me back to earth.

If not, maybe some other physical work? redesigning and planting up friends or someone’s garden? To see the fruits of your hard labour and their joy might help to restore your equilibrium?

Immer wenn du denkst es geht nicht mehr,
kommt von irgendwo ein Lichtlein her!
Just when you think you can’t go on,
Suddenly from nowhere comes a little light.

16 October 2009 at 23:17  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Hobgoblin, nor foul fiend,
Can daunt his Spirit:
He knows, he at the end,
Shall Life Inherit,
Then fancies fly away,
He'l fear not what men say,
He'l labour Night and Day,
To be Pilgrim.

Courage, Your Grace, You'll find help to overcome your despondency.

Edward Sutherland.

16 October 2009 at 23:17  
Anonymous churchmouse said...

If I remember rightly, T. S. Eliot said that mankind cannot stand very much truth. Things seem to have gone downhill a bit, even since then!

Your Grace's stand, and search, for Truth, however, is clearly invaluable to many of us. I'm so glad. This strand itself has elicited comforting thoughts for Your Grace, but they surely reach also to any communicant who needs them.

May the knowledge strengthen and refresh Your Grace; and may all our prayers be answered.

16 October 2009 at 23:55  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

May God bless you and keep you


try looking in the mirror and poking your tongue out

17 October 2009 at 03:10  
Blogger Kenpachi said...

Your Grace,

You yourself should take solace in the comfort and inspiration that your writing imbues within a great many of your readers.


17 October 2009 at 08:26  
Blogger Nilk said...

Your Grace, God be with you in your need, and in the meantime, have some Saint-Saens.

For something a bit more modern, I have been known to awaken some mornings singing How Great Is Our God by Chris Tomlin.

If you do take up sydneysider's offer, please come spend some time down here in Melbourne. There is always a place for a person in need, be they corporeal or not (as in Your Grace's case).

Okay, we go to a Baptist church, but our church also works with the local Anglicans, so there is room for you there, too.

Our Lord will help you through this time, as He has helped so many of us here. Myself included on quite a few occasions. There is no end to His mercy and love and justice.

17 October 2009 at 08:36  
Anonymous non mouse said...

I pray that the Lord will scatter and defeat your enemies. May He also Bless and Keep you as further testament to the Glory of His Name - now in this temporal sphere, and forever.

I hope your situation improves with each passing day.


17 October 2009 at 12:10  
Blogger Gnostic said...

How are you feeling today, Your Grace?

17 October 2009 at 12:13  
Blogger dmk said...

His mercies are new every morning. I pray that the clouds will lift, and that God will give you whatever grace and strength you need.

17 October 2009 at 12:35  
Anonymous Nick Baines said...

Hang on in there, Cranmer. You do us all a service - even when we are on the wrong end of your wrath! You are in my prayers, too.

17 October 2009 at 12:38  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

My prayers too.

Don't recant.

KBO - keep blessing others.

17 October 2009 at 13:07  
Blogger Song in my Heart said...

My prayers, too.

17 October 2009 at 13:29  
Blogger Links said...

Wherever the problem lies, you can hold your head high. I know that simply from the spirit which imbues everything you write. You are a great inspiration to me - and to many others, as is evident from above.

Nb: lingering dog breath is always bad news.

17 October 2009 at 13:52  
Blogger dutchlionfrans1953 said...

Here are some anointed songs that bring me to tears!

Keith Green - The Lord Is My Shepherd - 23rd Psalm Oh, the fragrance of the Lord I now smell while playing this song! I am so suprised! He is so real!

Keith Green - There Is A Redeemer

Keith Green - "Create In Me A Clean Heart"

Keith Green - To Obey Is Better Than Sacrifice (live)

Keith Green - My Eyes Are Dry(live)

Keith Green - The Victor (live)

Keith Green - Make My Life A Prayer To You (live)

Oh, mercy! I am sitting here listening and watching with tears... thinking: How much have we lost... what has this world come to in just 30 years..and how this brings me back to the time when I had just been born-again by the Spirit of the God, a NEW CREATION in Christ Jesus. How much I loved Him then...oh, mercy, Lord, bring me back to my first LOVE! YOU!

Keith Green, so many years after his unfortunate death, his fire, his heart, his love, his passion for Jesus Christ, his example, still speaks to us today!

May this help you, Cranmer! There are so many songs that you find when watching these video's just look at the section "Related Video's"

17 October 2009 at 13:56  
Anonymous woman on a raft said...

When one confronts a liar and a bully

That is all that matters.
I will wait for you here.

17 October 2009 at 14:00  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I have no idea what is behind this but as an atheist all I can say is don't let the bastards get you down.

17 October 2009 at 14:38  
Blogger Manfarang said...

I've been in similar situations.
Sincerity will get you through this,if you have right on your side you will prevail.

17 October 2009 at 14:43  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Please get up and do your stuff some more. You are a rock. Why don't you like us Catholics though? It upsets me to be pilloried so much by one whose thinking I admire.

17 October 2009 at 14:53  
Blogger maggi said...

Your Grace,
I know what it is to be bullied and lied to. Life goes on. And your life matters. May Beethoven, and the Holy Spirit, and anything else that helps, restore hope to your soul.

17 October 2009 at 16:05  
Blogger C. Stephanie said...

Why faintest thou? I wandered till I died.
Roam on! The light we sought is shining still.
Dost thou ask proof? Our tree yet crowns the hill,
Our Scholar travels yet the loved hillside.
Matthew Arnold

Beloved Stranger and Brother in Christ,

Sometimes this our great fellowship of suffering causes us to stagger. Take such rest as you can. Please do not listen to the voice of the Enemy. Has he threatened to ruin your reputation, cause you to be seen as a hypocrite? My dear friend, trust GOD and defy your enemy and have the peace of those who have given everything to Jesus. We have read to the end of the Book and our side wins. Jesus is God, who raises the dead. No failing of ours will be able to harm us, if we just hold true. In America we say - it ain't over till it's over... and then it ain't over yet.

Remember what the Father does! Do not forget I Corinthians 27-30:

But God hath chosen the foolish things of the world to confound the wise and

God hath chosen the weak things of the world to confound the things which are mighty;

And base things of the world and things which are despised hath God chosen, yeah,
And things which are not to bring to nought things that are;

That no flesh should glory in his presence. (KJV)

Things are not what they seem. Recover. Choose it. Choose the cross again. Our victory is certain.Romans 16:20.
GOD bless you!

17 October 2009 at 18:32  
Anonymous oiznop said...

Your Grace,

I have no idea what the problem is, but it's clearly big. If you need to talk, I'll email you my phone number. If it's more material, just let us all know. You've got so many fans and admirers that I'm sure we can help.

Please come back.

17 October 2009 at 19:17  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Cramner, I pray the words below give you comfort. God has reminded them to me at times of great pain.

"The Lord bless you and keep you;
the Lord make His face shine upon you and be gracious to you;
the Lord turn His face toward you and give you peace."

"If God Is For Us, Who Can Be Against Us?"

17 October 2009 at 19:18  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Your Grace,

Along with your other communicants I wish you relief and peace. For musical relief I suggest virtually anything by Vierne (whose earthly life was full of woes). Try the Final from his Organ Symphony no.6, or Les Cloches de Hinckley. But not 'Resignation' (24 Pieces de Fantaisie).


17 October 2009 at 19:18  
Anonymous Fran said...

Your Grace

At times such as this, we can only thank God for the Blood of Christ. The Italian hymn writer put it so much better than I can.

Glory be to Jesus,
who in bitter pains
poured for me the life blood
from his sacred veins!

Grace and life eternal
in that blood I find,
blest be his compassion
infinitely kind!

Blest through endless ages
be the precious stream
which from endless torment
doth the world redeem!

Abel's blood for vengeance
pleaded to the skies;
but the blood of Jesus
for our pardon cries.

Oft as it is sprinkled
on our guilty hearts,
Satan in confusion
terror-struck departs;

May the grace of the Lord Jesus Christ, the love of God and the Fellowship of the Holy Spirit be with you now, and for ever! Amen

17 October 2009 at 19:30  
Anonymous len said...

Isaiah 61

The Spirit of the Lord GOD is upon me; because the LORD hath anointed me to preach good tidings unto the meek; he hath sent me to bind up the brokenhearted, to proclaim liberty to the captives, and the opening of the prison to them that are bound;

To proclaim the acceptable year of the LORD, and the day of vengeance of our God; to comfort all that mourn;

To appoint unto them that mourn in Zion, to give unto them beauty for ashes, the oil of joy for mourning, the garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness; that they might be called trees of righteousness, the planting of the LORD, that he might be glorified.

17 October 2009 at 20:03  
Blogger Peter McGrath said...

Best wishes from this appreciative atheist. I hope the outpouring of affection here does something to ease your troubled mind.

17 October 2009 at 20:12  
Blogger Bishop Alan Wilson said...

God send your Grace sure hope and a good deliverance. Until the Lord pleases to raise up another Hensley Henson, you're all we've got!

with love and prayers,


17 October 2009 at 20:30  
Anonymous Terrabase said...

Your Grace. I so appreciate your words and check every day to see what more light you can pour out into the darkness. You regularly edify me and I trust we, your communicants comments have done something in return. It brings me great anger that you should be bullied and lied to/about.

17 October 2009 at 20:51  
Blogger Theo said...

For those who honour Me I will honour, and those who despise Me shall be lightly esteemed.
1 Sam 2:30 (AMP)

May God pour out his infinite blessings on you for the honour that you do Him in these columns.

17 October 2009 at 20:51  
Blogger Miss Snuffleupagus said...

With love x

17 October 2009 at 21:22  
Anonymous Romney said...

With the promise of prayer, along with a glass of Malt Whisky, raised to your good health

17 October 2009 at 23:14  
Blogger Preacher said...

Your Grace.
I am overawed & humbled at the love that you inspire from so many communicants of different faiths & views. Truly you are a remarkable man to inspire your readers so.
We all await with eager anticipation your return.
God Bless you.

17 October 2009 at 23:22  
Blogger Tranicos said...

Your Grace,

I hope the best wishes and prayers of all your communicants, to which I humbly add my own, help lift you from your current despair.

Please take care of yourself.
God Bless.

18 October 2009 at 02:09  
Anonymous Iancad said...

Your rays of light from a dark land shine regularly here in California.
We pray the Lord will grant you relief.
May you soon again pick up your quill.

18 October 2009 at 03:08  
Blogger OldSouth said...

Hang in there, friend.

The responses received already should let you know you are not alone.

18 October 2009 at 05:06  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

All of us can find ourselves in a dark place sometime.I was there four years ago but I kept going in the forelone hope that things would improve and slowly,over the following months,light started to return.Trust your faith.

18 October 2009 at 09:18  
Anonymous not a mouse said...

May the Son shine upon you - today and always.

18 October 2009 at 09:29  
Anonymous Charles said...

For God's sake (actually, for the sake of all readers of this great blog), would someone please investigate the whereabouts of His Grace's ashes and tell him to sort himself out. I really can't do with getting up and not having my daily fix.

18 October 2009 at 10:03  
Anonymous Flashman said...

Into the mouth of hell
Rode the one hundred
Flash'd all their sabres bare
Flash'd as they turned in air
McKenzie led the charge
brandishing a six pack
to pay the bastard back
for giving our Cranmer flak

18 October 2009 at 10:36  
Blogger Gnostic said...

Your faithful and worried communicants need a sign, Your Grace. Even if it's only that annoying Noel Edwards tapping us on the collective shoulder and declaring "Gotcha!"

Please, will you respond to our supplications?

Just a little bit?

Pretty please?

18 October 2009 at 11:02  
Anonymous Hank Petram said...

Your Grace, it's been 48 hours now since we last heard from you. Such protracted taciturnity is uncharacteristic. It would be a comfort and a relief if you would give us a word or two, even if it's no more than a brief Sunday blessing right here in this comments section. Please?

18 October 2009 at 11:18  
Anonymous Baxter said...

It is surely a testament to Cramner's brilliance that this first time commenter, non-British, non-Anglican reader is genuinely worried about his welfare after only a month of visiting this excellent blog. I certainly hope that His Grace is feeling okay, and that the good wishes left by his adoring friends will give him the strength to carry on.

18 October 2009 at 13:22  
Anonymous Atlas shrugged said...

Come on you old fraud, snap out of it.

A thinking human being can not know his material reality without feeling like a whole dogs home full of the blackest of Dogs have taken up permanent residence on their own back.

This is the human condition. When was it not the case???????

Only mindless fools could possibly be peacefully contented, while knowing there terrestrial situation. The garden may be green and pleasant, but it is inhabited by serpents.

Salvation is not to be found in this reality, but in a genuine spiritual relationship with TGAOTU.

Try to get a grip. If you built your house on sand, it is not surprising you now find it to be falling around your ears.

Get up, grow up, and dust yourself down. This time try working out what it is you really do believe, rather then relying on wishful thinking, and burying your head in the softest of soft earth.

18 October 2009 at 13:56  
Anonymous KS said...

You Grace,

Hold on to God tightly, He is not going to let go of you.

You are a child of God, loved and blessed.

18 October 2009 at 14:04  
Anonymous A Strange Variance in The Vector Stream said...

I think I have pinned it down old bean. You need to divert power from the main deflectors and route this through the main thrusters back into the power grid. It will induce a temporal wave fluctuation and balance the rift. If this fails then I am affraid you will have to eject the warp core!

18 October 2009 at 16:26  
Blogger D. Singh said...

Your Grace

Do your best to come to me soon. For Demas, in love with this present world, has deserted me and gone to Thessalonica. Crescens has gone to Galatia, Titus to Dalmatia. Luke alone is with me. Get Mark and bring him with you, for he is very useful to me for ministry. Tychicus I have sent to Ephesus. When you come, bring the cloak that I left with Carpus at Troas, also the books, and above all the parchments. Alexander the coppersmith did me great harm; the Lord will repay him according to his deeds. Beware of him yourself, for he strongly opposed our message. At my first defense no one came to stand by me, but all deserted me. May it not be charged against them! But the Lord stood by me and strengthened me, so that through me the message might be fully proclaimed and all the Gentiles might hear it. So I was rescued from the lion's mouth. The Lord will rescue me from every evil deed and bring me safely into his heavenly kingdom. To him be the glory forever and ever. Amen.

From 2 Timothy 4

18 October 2009 at 16:48  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Please get better and come back soon, Your Grace. We need you.

18 October 2009 at 17:56  
Anonymous len said...

God the Holy Ghost is a very loving Comforter. I am in distress, and want consolation. Some passer-by hears of my sorrow, and he steps within, sits down and essays to cheer me; he speaks soothing words; but he loves me not, he is a stranger, he knows me not at all, he has only come in to try his skill; and what is the consequence? His words run o'er me like oil upon a slab of marble—they are like the pattering rain upon the rock; they do not break my grief; it stands unmoved as adamant, because he has no love for me. But let someone who loves me dearly as his own life come and plead with me, then truly his words are music; they taste like honey; he knows the password of the doors of my heart, and my ear is attentive to every word; I catch the intonation of each syllable as it falls, for it is like the harmony of the harps of heaven. Oh, there is a voice in love, it speaks a language which is its own, it is an idiom and an accent which none can mimic; wisdom cannot imitate it; oratory cannot attain unto it; it is love alone which can reach the mourning heart; love is the only handkerchief which can wipe the mourner's tears away. And is not the Holy Ghost a loving Comforter? Dost thou know, O saint, how much the Holy Spirit loves thee? Canst thou measure the love of the Spirit? Dost thou know how great is the affection of His soul towards thee? Go, measure heaven with thy span; go, weigh the mountains in the scales; go, take the ocean's water, and tell each drop; go, count the sand upon the seas wide shore; and when thou hast accomplished this, thou canst tell how much He loveth thee. He has loved thee long; He has loved thee well; He loved thee ever; and He still shall love thee. Surely He is the person to comfort thee, because He loves. Admit Him, then, to your heart, O Christian that He may comfort you in your distress.
( From C Spurgeon )

18 October 2009 at 17:56  
Anonymous From North Carolina said...

Hey we're all down a bit sometime but you're a bit too valuable to be taking downtime right now when the world's messed up. You're a real light in the darkness and really appreciated over here. I don't normally make any comments on blogs but you're part of my daily routine and I just wanted you to know whatever you're going through, I'm with you buddy in prayer. Please try to continue.

18 October 2009 at 19:08  
Blogger OldSouth said...

I usually don't post twice anywhere, but upon further thought:

Someone in the UK knows who Cranmer in the flesh here and now, and needs to physically look in on our friend.

Isolation is the enemy, and the sense of being overwhelmingly alone creates terrible despair. People in positions of 'being minister' to others have the hardest time letting other people know when things are going wrong.

So, here's an appeal--find our friend, and make sure he's ok.

And, Cranmer, whoever you are, pick up the phone and call your friends.

18 October 2009 at 19:59  
Blogger DP111 said...

Cranmer refers to de Profundis, which is a reference to to Psalm 130. This lament, a Penitential Psalm, is the De profundis used in liturgical prayers for the faithful departed. In deep sorrow the psalmist cries to God, asking for mercy.

Wilde also wrote an essay "De profundis", of the deep depths of despair and depression.

I second Oldsouth, someone knows who Cramner is, and beseech them to look in asap. This is very serious.

All we can do is pray.

18 October 2009 at 21:56  
Blogger Friend of the Predigtamt said...

Your Grace:

Thoughts and Prayers are with you.

My friend-- a faithful Confessional Lutheran pastor-- has and still is dealing with his depression. He wrote about it and it's available as a digital download:

(And you should consider taking time off to heal yourself. Sydneysider has a good idea in regard to taking a respite.)

18 October 2009 at 23:45  
Anonymous Voyager said...

Sometimes the sky seems very far away and the earth below has no floor and the feeling of seeing a small and receding patch of light from the depths of a deep hole reinforces the feeling of loneliness and abandonment.

Defiant Hope is what sustains. If John Bunyan could suffer 12 years in gaol and write a book such as Pilgrim's Progress inspiration is indeed to be found.

Or for those of secular disposition there is the book by Stajner - 7000 Days in Siberia. A man can unjustly spend 20 years in Stalin's Gulags and find his wife waiting for him when he is finally released.

Innocence becomes an added burden for the wronged and often proves their undoing; for those who persecute them understand human nature all too well and turn virtue into a self-persecuting flail.

Your Grace, you provide a beacon to so many and are a light in many a dark tunnel; be defiant like a good Calvinist and trust in Mr Standfast.

19 October 2009 at 04:47  
Blogger Maverick said...

I know the darkness too well and offer you my hand. God be with you sir.

19 October 2009 at 05:44  
Anonymous postergirl said...

The LORD Almighty says, " When that time comes, I will pull out the stake that seems so firm. It will come out and fall to the ground. Everything it supports will fall with it. I the LORD, have spoken ! "
Isaiah 22 : 25

19 October 2009 at 06:06  
Blogger D. Singh said...

Self-love, my liege, is not so vile a sin
As self-neglect.

Henry V

Act II, Scene IV

19 October 2009 at 08:33  
Anonymous oiznop said...



19 October 2009 at 09:16  
Blogger Old Holborn said...

Life is infinately better than the alternatives, You Grace. And the mathematics of it's mere possibility are a good enough reason to enjoy it while it lasts. So many are denied even that.

Put your face to the sun and a quick recovery.

19 October 2009 at 10:16  
Blogger Laban said...

Fight the good fight, your Grace. Best wishes to you and yours.

19 October 2009 at 10:44  
Blogger ENGLISHMAN said...

Where are your guts cranmer,what are you a big girl?

19 October 2009 at 11:02  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Mate, this too will pass. One good thing about depression is it cures any fear of death, but as in Job's case the story was not over until God restored him

In the interim, for heaven's sake don't play any Wagner.

We're batting for you!


19 October 2009 at 12:22  
Anonymous no nonny said...

Wishing you a blessed today, Your Grace - and many more to follow.

19 October 2009 at 12:47  
Blogger Man in a Shed said...

I hope you can find the strength and grace to keep going.

Your absence is very much felt.

19 October 2009 at 13:53  
Blogger PaulineG said...

It must be clear to everyone who reads this that there is considerable and sincere concern for His Grace.

Is there anyone reading this who is in contact with him and knows that he is safe and in good hands? If so, then I think it would be deeply appreciated if they would, with his permission, offer some reassurance here.

19 October 2009 at 14:26  
Blogger Wrinkled Weasel said...

Indeed, there is considerable concern for the well-being of HG.

19 October 2009 at 14:33  
Blogger D. Singh said...

Methinks it would be unwise to track His Grace down.

He is 'entitled' to his privacy and to grief.

Hope deferred maketh the heart sick: but when the desire cometh, it is a tree of life.

19 October 2009 at 15:25  
Blogger Conservative Vision said...

You will be sorely missed, Your Grace.

19 October 2009 at 15:32  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

my doctor once told me many years ago that, yes, suffering depression was awful as he well knew but, if one suffered the depths one also enjoyed the highs whereas many people experience neither.

Like His Grace, when suffering I need to shut myself away with music and walk the dog on the hills until it passes.

19 October 2009 at 16:07  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

This is my first ever attempt to comment on any blog. Being technologically challenged, I hope I tick the right boxes!

I read your blog every day - catching up en-masse after a holiday. Your comments teach, explain and enrich, even when I do not agree with them. They are so needed when there are threats to our society and especially its Christian heritage.

Your troubles upset me. God Bless you Cranmer and give you a full recovery. You are important to so many people.


19 October 2009 at 18:21  
Anonymous francis said...

Your Grace, may I add my profoundest sympathies for your present troubles, and prayers that you may have the strength to surmount them.

Though I would not wish to add to the burdens your Grace is bearing, your loyal communicants would be most relieved to be assured of your spiritual welfare - if not directly from your Grace himself, then from someone acting with your Grace's blessing.

19 October 2009 at 19:16  
Anonymous Miserable Sinner said...

Your Grace, your website has been one of my daily reads since I first discovered it.

I have also suffered a great deal from depression, and in fact, still suffer from it. Your latest post is a very sad one. Maybe if you can get away for a couple of weeks you could go to some hot and sunny place. Lots of people become very sad in the fall and winter months, and going to a sunny place can sometimes help.

May God help us both.

19 October 2009 at 19:53  
Anonymous Anguished Soul said...

If there is anything we can do for you, Your Grace, you must speak up.

May you return to full health soon.

19 October 2009 at 20:19  
Anonymous Fran said...

Your Grace continues to be in my prayers daily.

I should offer to light a candle for you but fear that memories of 21 March 1556 might prove too traumatic.

I and many others wish you a speedy return to full fighting form.

19 October 2009 at 20:30  
Anonymous arbee said...

Your Grace,

My soul was sorely grieved to read of your distress; may I add my prayers for your protection and restoration to those of your other communicants.

19 October 2009 at 21:23  
Blogger Kleinverzet said...

Your Grace,

Coming from the other side of the Reformation, I would indeed hope that will not have to forego on one of only a few blogs that truly inspire me (as opposed to just informing me).

Even in de depths, one must listen to the Voice, saying: 'I will be with you, all the days of your life'. Know that you are not alone. Ever.

19 October 2009 at 22:24  
Blogger Giolla said...

You erudite words would be sorely missed your Grace, may you recover swiftly and return to us once more in fine form.

19 October 2009 at 22:55  
Blogger Ian said...

While as a sinner, I am not worthy to frequent your esteemed blog, that you allow me to do so is great comfort.

To be able to share and converse with yourself and the more estemiable of my colleagues here, is a worthy mission on your part and one I sorely hope you continue to carry on.

Where else would likes of myself end up...?

19 October 2009 at 22:55  
Blogger Guthrum said...

Your Grace

Nobody is truly alone, it is the very nature of things. Man is a very small part of that nature, those who cause pain to others will pass into obscurity. Their deeds counting for nothing.

19 October 2009 at 23:01  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Dear Archbishop Cranmer,

Please don't despair - God works in mysterious ways. I have just returned from a debate in Westminster where those in support of the Catholic Church were routed, and the cynics and atheists were loud and triumphant in their victory. And yet ... and yet ... I took my son, and the debate sparked a conversation between us that I've prayed for for years. Things do not always work out as we expect - and 'all things work together for good for those who love the Lord.'

Be strong.

19 October 2009 at 23:14  
Anonymous Mr Ecks said...

Stand, You Grace, Stand.

If a sword is forbidden you to cut your enemy then take example from Bishops of the past who instead picked up a mace with which to belabour their foes and the foes of God. Perhaps now is a good time to leaven thoughts of gentle Jesus, meek and mild, with the counsel of Odin--not a Christian belief, but another face of the Almighty for we all need sometimes a God of Battles. Rise, smite them and Woe unto thw wicked!!!.

19 October 2009 at 23:14  
Blogger Dick Puddlecote said...

From an ungodly nightcrawler.

Don't you dare!

19 October 2009 at 23:42  
Blogger Shibby said...

Winter blues eh?

Sorrow is temporary.

Drastic measures oft not-so-temporary.

Tell the world to do its worst and know that it will pass.

19 October 2009 at 23:51  
Anonymous assegai mike said...

If I may lower the brow on musical relief, I'd like to recommend Bob Marley's Three Little Birds. Works for me every time.

Very best wishes.

19 October 2009 at 23:52  
Blogger Pavlov's Cat said...

No man is an island. We're all here for you.

20 October 2009 at 00:17  
Blogger banned said...

Best wishes for a speedy recovery and may your God be with you.


20 October 2009 at 00:20  
Anonymous hangemall said...

When at times I have been low the Roman saying always comes to mind. "Dum spiro, spero."

"While I breathe I hope."

20 October 2009 at 00:26  
Anonymous Tom Paine said...

Cheer up! Look at all this support. You are much valued and respected, even by those who don't share your beliefs. I hope they are a comfort to you in your despondency.

20 October 2009 at 00:41  
Anonymous Stewart Cowan said...

Old Holborn left a message on Tom Harris's blog, which prompted me to leave a message for you.

My blog roll consists of three names and you are one of them!

I have been through terrible depressions myself, even lacking the will to live, which was mainly due to constantly worrying about the state of the world and my own feeble efforts, but then I started lightening up because the Almighty God is in control and so I don't need to worry every minute of the day.

Friends had to drum this fact into my head.

I started turning my concerns into opportunities. Instead of getting depressed, I started a website. I stopped worrying what people think of me and started speaking my mind.

I know from feedback that I have helped people see things differently. They have thanked me.

You are much bigger than me, so many more people will have benefited from your insight.

Maybe a change would help. I moved to a new house and I decided I was going to enjoy it no matter what. I guess you don't have to move to make that decision. Just trust in Christ and do it.

The Good Shepherd won't let us down. I used to worry about the lost sheep. How can *I* save them, I used to beat myself up with, but He will keep the 99 safe while the lost one is returned safely to the fold.

I am sure that, through God's grace, all will be gathered together whose names are written in the Book of Life.

At church at the weekend, we were reminded that one of the most important things about being a Christian is the waiting. Waiting upon the glorious return of Christ.

While we're waiting, take some rest as you need to.

And remember, depressions *always* pass. I guarantee this. I am somewhat of an expert after several decades of the things. Get some antidepressants if you need to. Plenty of Christians are on them. I've been on them. There's no shame in it.

A walk can do wonders, especially if you can kick some Autumn leaves about as you go!

20 October 2009 at 01:12  
Blogger Spartan said...

Walk not into the shadows but go towards the light and put them behind you.

.......... from experience.

20 October 2009 at 02:01  
Blogger Fergus Carrick said...

Your Grace,

Very best wishes from across the Pond and a prayer for God’s blessings and a speedy return to full vigor.

20 October 2009 at 02:41  
Anonymous Sir Henry Morgan said...

Yes, the black dog is a nasty beast to have following you around. But it sooner or later goes to find someone else to pester.

He's a regular visitor to my place. I just refuse to feed him and he eventually goes away again.

20 October 2009 at 02:57  
Anonymous Sir Henry Morgan said...

Give it time - everything passes.

I do speak from experience.

20 October 2009 at 03:01  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Remember the Lord's own words

... but deliver us from evil.
For thine is the kingdom, the power and the glory. for ever and ever. Amen


4 Paul to the Philippians 8-9

"Finally, brethren, whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things are honest, whatsoever things are just, whatsoever things are pure, whatsoever things are lovely, whatsoever things are of good report; if there be any virtue, and if there be any praise, think on these things.
Those things, which ye have both learned, and received, and heard, and seen in me, do: and the God of peace shall be with you."


1 Corinthians 13:13

"But now abideth faith, hope, love, these three; and the greatest of these is love."

Many, many people feel enough love for you and your thoughts, may it give you strength.

20 October 2009 at 03:22  
Blogger C. Stephanie said...

Come on Cranmer, snap out of it. Pick up the phone and call someone. Live. Sometimes all you can do for God is live. Stick it out. Give to beggars. Give to the poor. Listen to someone else's troubles. Provide anonymous meals. Pay for someone's groceries. Yes, I know that your pain is real. These are the activities that have snapped me out of it. Our brother who told you to praise the Lord in the teeth of it and rebuke the devil is right. Decide to praise God. Rebuke Satan out loud and by name. Do it in the name of Jesus. Candles and music are not going to cut it. WAR.
Cranmer make them kill you if they want to, but don't for God's sake give in. You can do this. It's so important. You're so important.

20 October 2009 at 05:02  
Blogger Scrobs... said...

Morning Your Grace!

Recently I Blogged this because I'd been sent one of those 'pass it on for Good Luck' emails, which I usually ignore.

But, feeling a bit low, and knowing who'd sent it to me, I found 20 or so names and sent it off - presumably to forget that I was going to receive some 'good luck', (because I need it too I can tell you)!

The 'Good Luck' came back in a most peculiar way.

It came in the form of several emails from old friends and contacts, who had recently lost their jobs, lost their homes, even their families etc, and it took me several days to realise that I had the 'good luck' already, while many people were losing or had lost what was due to them!

I don't really know if this helps, but judging by the number of concerned posters here, I reckon you're in credit for 'Good Luck' now, and can move on.

Just a thought.

20 October 2009 at 05:34  
Blogger Elby the Beserk said...

Yr Grace.

I too am in the midst of a fight with a liar and a bully. Happily I have the bastard by the short and curlies, thanks to his own profound stupidity and overweening ego.

In the meantime

Look out of any window
any morning, any evening, any day
Maybe the sun is shining
birds are winging or
rain is falling from a heavy sky -
What do you want me to do,
to do for you to see you through?
This is all a dream we dreamed
one afternoon long ago

Walk out of any doorway
feel your way, feel your way
like the day before
Maybe you'll find direction
around some corner
where it's been waiting to meet you

What do you want me to do,
to watch for you while you're sleeping?
Well please don't be surprised
when you find me dreaming too

Look into any eyes
you find by you, you can see
clear through to another day
I know it's been seen before
through other eyes on other days
while going home --
What do you want me to do,
to do for you to see you through?
It's all a dream we dreamed
one afternoon long ago

Walk into splintered sunlight
Inch your way through dead dreams
to another land
Maybe you're tired and broken
Your tongue is twisted
with words half spoken
and thoughts unclear
What do you want me to do
to do for you to see you through?
A box of rain will ease the pain
and love will see you through

Just a box of rain -
wind and water -
Believe it if you need it,
if you don't just pass it on
Sun and shower -
Wind and rain -
in and out the window
like a moth before a flame

It's just a box of rain
I don't know who put it there
Believe it if you need it
or leave it if you dare
But it's just a box of rain
or a ribbon for your hair
Such a long long time to be gone
and a short time to be there

20 October 2009 at 06:01  
Anonymous Yokel said...

I know it has already been said once, but I'll quote it again:

"May The Lord bless you and keep you.
May the Lord make His face to shine upon you, and be gracious to you.
May the Lord lift up His countenance upon you, and give you peace."

May the Lord be with you in these troubled times.

20 October 2009 at 07:02  
Anonymous Sniper said...

Like all dogs (all good chaps) even the Black Dog can be brought to heel.

So get your stout walking shoes on, take the leash of the hook and show Fido who's in charge.

20 October 2009 at 07:07  
Anonymous Paul said...

Your Grace:

There are lots and lots of us out there who are with you every step of the way. You're one of the very best.

20 October 2009 at 07:18  
OpenID curly15 said...

Our thoughts and prayers are with you Your Grace, and we hope to hear from you again soon.

20 October 2009 at 08:06  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

After self-evaluation and self-rebuke should come with time the healing power of forgetfulness. Being willing to allow yourself to forget is the noble path.

20 October 2009 at 08:40  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Might I suggest "Siddhartha" by Hermann Hesse. It is quite simply the most beautiful book.


20 October 2009 at 08:45  
Blogger D. Singh said...

To everything there is a season, and
a time to every purpose under heaven:

A time to be born, and
a time to die;
a time to plant, and
a time to pluck up
that which is planted;

A time to kill, and
a time to heal;
a time to break down, and
a time to build up;

A time to weep, and
a time to laugh;
a time to mourn, and
a time to dance;

A time to cast away stones, and
a time to gather stones together;
a time to embrace, and
a time to refrain from embracing;

A time to get, and
a time to lose;
a time to keep, and
a time to cast away;

A time to rend, and
a time to sow;
a time to keep silence, and
a time to speak;

A time to love, and
a time to hate;
a time of war; and
a time of peace.

20 October 2009 at 09:06  
Blogger Jess The Dog said...

Your Grace,

Autumn is a beautiful time of year, crisp blue skies, the brown carpet of fallen leaves, the smell of woodsmoke, and the promise of a glass of wine by a fireside, possibly with a book. Maybe Wolf Hall by Hilary Mantel in which your Grace appears.

And the BBC has a set of landscape photographs online.

To cap it all, it will be sunny on Thursday in Canterbury, perhaps the spiritual home of His Grace even if the physical ashes are long ago scattered.

There are many easons to smile, it's just hard work finding them.

20 October 2009 at 09:10  
Blogger Gnostic said...

Peace and Tranquility

I hope you find it soon, Your Grace.

20 October 2009 at 09:15  
Anonymous oiznop said...

May we hear from you today, Your Grace? I really am astonished at how much I am missing your daily thoughts! Please come back. If there's anything I (we) can do to help, please just say the word.

20 October 2009 at 09:19  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Your Grace,

I read your blog on a regular basis. I find it comforting and inspiring to know that I am not alone in my views.

As for the "black dog", I have suffered on and off for years with that one.

We as a society are currently in some dark times, however I do
BELIEVE we are turning a corner.

I wish his Grace all the strength he needs, and look forward to more posts in the future.

A humble blog reader.

20 October 2009 at 09:19  
Blogger Great Big Billygoat Gruff said...

Get a grip, there are things as yet undone that you await.

An atheist!

20 October 2009 at 10:02  
Blogger McKenzie said...

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20 October 2009 at 10:12  
Blogger Anguus said...

Your Grace,

Our prayers with you at this time.

With deepest respect,

P.S. I am sure Your Grace needs no reminding of, or a gentle prodding towards Beethoven's Op.132, the String Quartet in A minor. In particular the middle movement, whose main theme in the old fashioned lydian mode returns again and again in successive complexity and sublimity...

P.P.S. Failing that, Zadok the Priest.

20 October 2009 at 10:15  
Anonymous otacilia severa said...

Please don't give up hope, Your Grace. The light shineth in darkness.

20 October 2009 at 10:17  
Blogger The Fact Compiler said...

Luke 9.62

Up and at 'em!

20 October 2009 at 10:32  
Anonymous Shadow said...

Your Grace,
You are sorely missed. I find that my Morning Prayer helps when I am feeling down, and gives me some sense of self-worth:

"Father, I pray that all that I do today, will be to Your glory,
and that Your Light will shine from me to others.

Through Jesus Christ our Lord.

20 October 2009 at 10:42  
Anonymous Knighthawk said...

Your Grace,

Depression tends to lock you into concentrating on your own troubles and you run the risk of imprisoning yourself in a fortress of despair. The best way of starving Black Dog into submission is to find someone else you can help even if it is only in a small way.

Don't overdo it though. A little rest, a little work, and a little recreation helps to keep things in balance.

Your insight and guidance is sorely missed but I for one would not wish to encourage a premature return to the battlefield.

I pray for you daily.
May God uphold you by his power.

Cast your cares on the Lord and he will sustain you; he will never let the righteous fall.

20 October 2009 at 11:03  
Blogger Ian said...

Your grace - you must know that this is a test of your faith.

Therefore be strong and know that the Lord is close. Dont despair because you will emerge stronger and closer to God as a result.

Remember Jesus' temptation in the wilderness.

It also darkest close to dawn.

20 October 2009 at 11:05  
Blogger D. Singh said...

Your Grace,

One of the writers here, I think said, ‘your work is not yet finished.’

This is true.

Your destiny awaits you, the withered hands of the clock doth move; our country is in peril, war steed neighs to war steed; the report of you is superior to the rumour; no man dare come against you with moral indignation; men flee, but you obey the battle order ‘Stand firm!’, recognised by every courageous commander; they have built a memorial to your past works and sacrifice; men doth honour thee - England expects more.

But -

Our flags and banners have been lowered; the drummers have fallen silent and our cannons are retired.

But who knows, His Grace may reappear and then we shall be able to agree with the old Roman:

‘Now the boundary of Britain is revealed, and everything unknown is held to be glorious.’

20 October 2009 at 11:20  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

"But we have this treasure in earthen vessels, that the excellence of the power may be of God and not of us. We are hard-pressed on every side, yet not crushed; we are perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not forsaken; struck down, but not destroyed— always carrying about in the body the dying of the Lord Jesus, that the life of Jesus also may be manifested in our body.

.......we also believe and therefore speak, knowing that He who raised up the Lord Jesus will also raise us up with Jesus, and will present us with you. For all things are for your sakes, that grace, having spread through the many, may cause thanksgiving to abound to the glory of God.

Therefore we do not lose heart. Even though our outward man is perishing, yet the inward man is being renewed day by day. For our light affliction, which is but for a moment, is working for us a far more exceeding and eternal weight of glory, while we do not look at the things which are seen, but at the things which are not seen. For the things which are seen are temporary, but the things which are not seen are eternal"
from 2 Corinthians 4

Paul also knew the heat of the battle and the grace of God upholding him in the struggle.
May our great God surround you with His love and grace today.

20 October 2009 at 11:27  
Anonymous Tiberius said...

“In this Apostolic Constitution the Holy Father has introduced a canonical structure that provides for such corporate reunion by establishing Personal Ordinariates which will allow former Anglicans to enter full communion with the Catholic Church while preserving elements of the distinctive Anglican spiritual and liturgical patrimony.”

Oi, wake up you stupid man. The Pope's just made a land-grab. GET UP AND SPEAK UP!

20 October 2009 at 11:29  
OpenID jamestheless said...

Your Grace,

I must admit that I have not looked at your blog for some time and have only just learnt of your unfortunate state from another blog. May I add my sympathies and prayers to the many already expressed?

The exercise of power is one of the activities in which the fallenness of human nature can be most clearly manifested - the blindness, the weakness, the confusion, the desire to be like God (in the wrong way).

In time, everything in this world will pass away - even this atrocious Labour government.

Continue on the path of righteousness, no matter how unbelievably painful it can be at times, and eventually it will lead you to the light.

20 October 2009 at 11:35  
Blogger Savonarola said...

You have received most uplifting goodwill messages.

I fear the answer to recovery from this slough of despond, general or specifically triggered, requires medical treatment. Prayers, music and exhortations although morale boosting will not be enough.

I urge Your Grace to take prescribed medications and thus allow your spirit to recover from this neural chemical assault.

You have my prayers along with all those whom the Black Dog visits.

With grateful thanks for a most outstanding blog.

20 October 2009 at 12:07  
Blogger The Paragnostic said...

Your Grace,

As an atheist I don't always agree with you, but as a fellow sufferer of those 'black dog' days, may I recommend reading some Wilfred Owen?

It helps me - and sometimes I even resort to Larkin.

Chin up, old chap!

20 October 2009 at 13:23  
Anonymous churchmouse said...

In Trust that the Lord has his special witness under special protection. His side and yours can only win.

And wishing Your Grace the best Tuesday of all possible Tuesdays!

20 October 2009 at 13:28  
Blogger Simon said...

May I add my support and concern to the others on Your Grace's blog.

Although things may seem in despair, do not worry as the light will return.

20 October 2009 at 13:52  
Blogger Preacher said...

Your Grace.
The light always shines brighest in the darkest place. The smallest candle will dispel the darkest night, no matter how deep or great the gloom, it has to bow to the smallest spark. Chin up old friend, look around & see the glories that surrround you by the light of the world that came into the world to set us poor sinners free.
We will not give up but will stand with you until the victory is won.

20 October 2009 at 14:15  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

If things really do seem truly hopeless, I recommend a prayer to St Jude. hehas never failed me. As for music, try The Laughing Policeman

20 October 2009 at 14:20  
Anonymous Anabaptist said...

Is somebody suing you, Cranny? Or threatening to do so? Give us a hint, please.

20 October 2009 at 14:21  
Blogger Fausty said...

So sorry you feel such dark despair. It will pass.

You bring much sense to this world and I enjoy reading your words.

It is so often the true righteous who suffer most because they self-recriminate - they have conscience.

The "Righteous" (as Leg-Iron calls them), don't.

20 October 2009 at 14:45  
Anonymous postergirl said...

Here`s a hug or two for you this morning, Your Grace.

20 October 2009 at 15:02  
Anonymous Roger Dodger said...

In dark times as these I often turn to the words of St. Michael for comfort:

You are not alone
I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
You are not alone

20 October 2009 at 15:53  
Anonymous Lee said...

Put your hand over the flames and join us again, O friend.

20 October 2009 at 16:04  
Blogger Mrs R said...

Latimer and Ridley had a very bad day on 16th October 1555.

Meditate on Latimer's last words :-

"Be of good cheer, Master Ridley, and play the man, for we shall this day light such a candle in England as I trust by God's grace shall never be put out."

20 October 2009 at 16:26  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Cheer up - you could be Damian Thompson ... ;-)

20 October 2009 at 16:33  
Anonymous Steve Baker said...

The book of Habakkuk may help you.

20 October 2009 at 17:24  
Blogger ZZMike said...

This is unlike our gracious host. I pray that his afflictions will be lifted.

I also recommend (except for the musical connection), the requiems of Mozart and Faure.

20 October 2009 at 18:08  
Blogger Links said...

It is more serious than I first thought.

R.I.P. Your Grace.

Resurrection in the post, I hope. If not, may your spirit in the other world (beyond the blog) shine as brightly as it did here.

20 October 2009 at 18:39  
Blogger winston smith said...

i sincerely hope your grace is ok . your blog offers me light in a dark world

20 October 2009 at 18:58  
Blogger McKenzie said...

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20 October 2009 at 20:46  
Anonymous Maturecheese said...

Your Grace. Hope you get well soon. In the meantime your writings will be greatly missed

20 October 2009 at 22:00  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I have looked again today and many others will quietly be doing the same. Still you are are not there.
Heaven only knows how much this world needs a voice like yours.

May God help you in your struggle, my prayers are added to those offered for your return to well being.

I am technically illiterate and so must remain anonymous.

20 October 2009 at 22:19  

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